I’ve been plagued by a lot of things lately. What to do, what to write, where to work and even who to be. I know I’m not alone when I say “I get lost”. We all have our moments of struggles and pains but it’s what we do when we’re struggling that is most important.
I’ve realized that today it’s very hard to be frustrated and just vent. When you do that someone wants to come out the woodwork and give their two cents. It’s even more upsetting when it’s a fair weather friend. That friend who isn’t always there for you when you need it but than wants to give you there opinion. I’ve had a few of those friends. They are no longer friends and I’m purging the rest that are left in my life as well.
Sometimes we just need that time to vent and that’s it. We may know when we’re acting ridiculous and we know when we’re over reacting we just need to get something out.
Today im just ranting. I have nothing in particular to rant about rather a hodge podge of things.
I decided to go back to school and am not sure it’s what I really want. It’s an MBA and I’m on a scholarship but I’m exhausted. I’m working full time and I have a part time job. I’m also trying to become healthy and live healthy but that’s not really working.
I’m always exhausted and working and have little to not life. I really don’t know what to do. Well I do know what to do but it’s hard to sometimes make those big decisions. The first big decision is to quit my part time job. Focus on my full time job and my health. Than focus on the future of a full time job that will pay all my bills. Right now it’s not happening !!!
As im purging the words that are in the put of my stomach I’m realizing more and more I’m happy, I’m ok. I’m just having a bad day. I know what I need to do and I’ll do it. I’ll get there !!!